Shoutbox Wannabe.

[NightskyeB4Dawn]

I am making this thread because I just want to vent. There is absolutely no substance behind this post, nothing with teeth, nothing to hold on to.

A thread where I can throw stuff out there, just to get it off me chest, so I don't feel like I am talking to myself.

Making this a place of refuge until the Shoutbox is back up and running.

[BIAD]

A Shout Box is a great way to offer links and quick commentary without the need to bog down the site
with a thread which requires limited responses. At least NightSkyB4Dawn offers us a substitute place
for the time being until we find another Shout Box!!

Thanks NSB4D.

[NightskyeB4Dawn]

The first nothing post.

I was at church earlier. After service a number of us were in fellowship. One member of the group was leaving but she had something in her car she wanted to give to another member of the group.

The member was elderly, so she asked me to walk to the car with her to bring it back, because she was parked a bit of a way off. 

I agreed, walked to the car, and brought the item back, she drove off. On the way back it dawned on me.

I am 25 years older than her. The elderly person that I was bringing the item to, is 20 years older than me.

I know why I forget that I am old as dirt. I don't get why all these young people forget. They often make requests you would expect to make of someone much younger. Expecting that I will be able to do the task with ease.

Okay, partly my fault. I always end up doing the task, mainly because it needs to be done, I don't want to wait, and I want it done right. 

I am still working on the "with ease" part. It always works in the moment, but comes back to visit in a couple of days with a heightened reminder.

Just had to get that off my chest.

[NightskyeB4Dawn]

Twilight Zone has really been in the zone today.

They have played all my favorite episodes from way back. 

Brought back serious memories of my childhood. I so wish I could have known then what I know now. That those days were going be the best, and nothing I could have imagined would be better.

Hindsight in this case goes far beyond 20/20.

[senona]

Twilight Zone has really been in the zone today.

They have played all my favorite episodes from way back. 

Brought back serious memories of my childhood. I so wish I could have known then what I know now. That those days were going be the best, and nothing I could have imagined would be better.

Hindsight in this case goes far beyond 20/20.

Aaah, yes ... if only we knew then, what we know now. LOL

What changes we may  -- or may not of -- changed

[Freija]

I am somewhat pissed at everything today and in a crappy mood. My sim racing league's leadership is pissing me off, RN3 has taken a turn for the worse (IMO) and my daughter has hurt my feelings leading to me feeling a bit of jealousy toward her other parent and my car has been broken for 2+ weeks forcing me to walk to a crappy little corner market and spend more of money I don't have instead of shopping at the big Kroger/Fry's.

Maybe it's good there isn't a shoutbox right now because all I would do is whine and complain.

[NightskyeB4Dawn]

I am somewhat pissed at everything today and in a crappy mood. My sim racing league's leadership is pissing me off, RN3 has taken a turn for the worse (IMO) and my daughter has hurt my feelings leading to me feeling a bit of jealousy toward her other parent and my car has been broken for 2+ weeks forcing me to walk to a crappy little corner market and spend more of money I don't have instead of shopping at the big Kroger/Fry's.

Maybe it's good there isn't a shoutbox right now because all I would do is whine and complain.

It started on Friday morning for me. I sure hope it ends today, and tomorrow starts a new day and a better week.

It sounds like the both of us could use a break.

[senona]

I am somewhat pissed at everything today and in a crappy mood. My sim racing league's leadership is pissing me off, RN3 has taken a turn for the worse (IMO) and my daughter has hurt my feelings leading to me feeling a bit of jealousy toward her other parent and my car has been broken for 2+ weeks forcing me to walk to a crappy little corner market and spend more of money I don't have instead of shopping at the big Kroger/Fry's.

Maybe it's good there isn't a shoutbox right now because all I would do is whine and complain.

Feel free to whine and complain, that is what this is here for until we get our shoutbox back



On subject of cars, my brother-in-law worked hard to today, replacing the control panel in my Crown Vic
(it's a pain in the azz, ugh)

Anyhow, now the whole damn thing has gone haywire, nothing working like it should,  so he is having to put the old one back in.
And it is still not right, so yeah,,,, today sucks  

[Freija]

Feel free to whine and complain, that is what this is here for until we get our shoutbox back

Okay, thanks I will!

When my daughter, who is 48, gets back from her 3 week Norwegian cruise with her other parent and both their spouses, I'm going to have a chat with her about how it made me feel when she didn't tell me she was going. Maybe she was hoping I wouldn't find out but when you're used to seeing her online in Steam everyday playing games, her absence had me worried as she'd recently had surgery on her foot and she wasn't replying to my texts so I texted said other parent trying to find out if they knew anything only to find out they were all in Norway together.

I'm not sure jealousy is the right word but I'm feeling something?  Maybe it's just the realization that in the last 12-15 years or so, I'm not the favorite any more but I should be happy about this, not slightly irked by it. For most of her life, daughter never got along well with her biological mother who wasn't very maternal and their relationship was never great but both of them have worked on improving that which I think is wonderful for both of them but it still feels like I'm being sidelined or relegated to second class status so they can mend fences or whatever? It is possible that my daughter is aware of how I might feel about this and why she didn't tell me but I'll have to wait until she gets back to find out.

I know I'm just being a little selfish, immature and dealing with my own ego and being a couple weeks late on taking my hormone injection hasn't helped emotionally and my "family", as it were, is anything but typical but do other parents ever feel this way?

With all that said, I've been grateful for having the opportunity to even raise a child or be a mom at all considering I couldn't have children of my own so I'll probably stuff whatever it is I'm feeling down and let it all slide. I know I'm still loved dearly and that's all that really matters. It isn't a competition.

[NightskyeB4Dawn]

I know I'm just being a little selfish, immature and dealing with my own ego and being a couple weeks late on taking my hormone injection hasn't helped emotionally and my "family", as it were, is anything but typical but do other parents ever feel this way?

With all that said, I've been grateful for having the opportunity to even raise a child or be a mom at all considering I couldn't have children of my own so I'll probably stuff whatever it is I'm feeling down and let it all slide. I know I'm still loved dearly and that's all that really matters. It isn't a competition.

I know that feeling. I raised three of my sister's children when she was sick. When she was able to care for them again they were teens and could choose where they wanted to live. Of course they chose to go with the indulgent Mother over the strict Aunt. I still had them on the weekends, and it took me about two years to come to grips with the situation, let it go, and just be happy I had the children all of their formative years. Two turned out to be solid, the baby, knew how to milk my sister for all it was worth, and she still does. She didn't learn that from me.

[ChiefD]

@"NightskyeB4Dawn" thanks for creating this temporary shoutbox. Thanks for sharing your story. @"Freija" thanks for sharing your story too. Thinking of you both. Families can be something else at times.

I got a call from one of the nurses at my hubby’s nursing home that he has been having some blood in his pee. The nurse told me this has been going on since Wednesday, and it typically clears on its own. It isn’t clearing this time. The doctor ordered a urinalysis so he can check it for infection. The nurse told me my hubby denies being in any pain. Hopefully it is something they can just give him pills for. I’m worried again, and think this will be another night with no sleep. I know there’s not a damn thing I can do for him. I just hate feeling helpless. Especially after that sepsis infection that landed him in the hospital a few months ago. I know he’s prone to this kind of thing. I just have to have faith.

[Freija]

The pregnancy of my daughter's birth mother was unplanned and unwanted so when she was born, I basically stepped in and took over and was a full time stay at home parent for her first two years of her life. After that I was forced to move out and not being able to take that precious sweet girl with me was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life but I was able to have her every weekend and during vacations and we were always very close.

When she was 12, she came to live with my then husband and I full time until she was 18 and moved out to live with her boyfriend and future husband. She barely spoke to her other mom during this time and often used me as a go-between. Even later in life, she always came to me first with things like getting pregnant or leaving her husband with the expectation that I would pass the news along to her other parent as there was always distance between them.

Now the tables have turned which I think is only fair and she has the relationship with her "real" mom she never had and I'm honestly happy for the both of them to see that but I won't deny it smarts a little in some ways. I'll get over it. I know I'm not any less important to her and am just being overly sensitive about being kept in the dark about her trip.

Talking about this has been cathartic in some ways. Thanks for letting me get it out of my system. I'm even happier learning a little bit ago that my ex-hubby is coming over tomorrow and taking me to the store to get a new battery for my car. Now if I can just get him to pay for it too! Lol 

[EndtheMadnessNow]

Ya'll gotta check out this big moose battle royal. That poor truck!

https://twitter.com/BornAKang/status/158...0639589378

[MisterSpock]

I don't like change.

[Freija]

I don't like change.

If you can stand the lightness of it, go to the bottom of the page and select the MyBBPro theme. It switches from the portal view to something more familiar with the recent posts now being at the bottom rather than the top.

You still can't rate or get to your UserCP but it's better (IMO) than the portal interface by a mile.

[Finspiracy]

I am making this thread because I just want to vent. There is absolutely no substance behind this post, nothing with teeth, nothing to hold on to.

A thread where I can throw stuff out there, just to get it off me chest, so I don't feel like I am talking to myself.

Making this a place of refuge until the Shoutbox is back up and running.

Very thoughtful. Thank you. I am gonna need this thread later. Hopefully i can ventilate but i am in complete apathy now, can't do shit. if i feel unable to really talk about things, ventilate, then i will reply to some people here about their stuff.

Gimme like 1 hour to get money and then another 1 hour to destroy a six pack or so. Then i will be here.

[Brotherman]

I am making this thread because I just want to vent. There is absolutely no substance behind this post, nothing with teeth, nothing to hold on to.

A thread where I can throw stuff out there, just to get it off me chest, so I don't feel like I am talking to myself.

Making this a place of refuge until the Shoutbox is back up and running.

Talking about taking shit off your chest and substances don't threaten me with a good time. Fucking Badger Force sniffed this one out =)

[Ninurta]

Talking about this has been cathartic in some ways. Thanks for letting me get it out of my system.

No problem. vent away. My two cents worth - and that is about all it's worth -  is to be happy she's mending fences, and is ABLE to mend fences, with her biological ma. You'll always have a place in her heart, but it sounds like there is something she needs to concentrate on just now.



My son's ma died when he was 11, and I raised him the rest of the way to adulthood myself. He's not able to mend fences with his ma, because of death getting in the way and all. Probably the saddest thing I've ever heard was when he told me he couldn't remember her any more. Damn near broke my heart. I mean, we didn't get along well for most of the time she was living, but damn, that was his MA! Despite our differences, I never talked trash about her to him, because that would have been the same as trashing HIM - that was his mom. So what I did was go through thousands of photos and make him a digital scrapbook to remember her with.



He's married into a much nicer family than me now, and I'm glad for him. Even at that, there are just some problems he faces in life where he has to come looking for me to get a grip on. Your daughter will, too. You've not been replaced, she has just widened her support base, and there is nothing wrong with that. It might be a better tack to let her know, somehow, that it's ok and you don't feel threatened (even if you do - it will eventually pass) so that she doesn't feel a need to try to hide that relationship from you. That's what I did, and it's worked for me.



Be forewarned - if she gets the notion that there is not any subject she cannot breach with you, as my son has, there will be times that your blood will either curdle or boil... just never let on that it is, so she doesn't shut you out again,

I'm even happier learning a little bit ago that my ex-hubby is coming over tomorrow and taking me to the store to get a new battery for my car. Now if I can just get him to pay for it too! Lol 

Just turn on the charm and appear helpless - he'll cave, melt, and then foot the bill. Works every time. Take That from a man. We're vulnerable like that. Women want to be WANTED, but men need to be NEEDED. It's our weakness. Some of us have superpowers, but all of us have superweaknesses!



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[Ninurta]

I am making this thread because I just want to vent. There is absolutely no substance behind this post, nothing with teeth, nothing to hold on to.

A thread where I can throw stuff out there, just to get it off me chest, so I don't feel like I am talking to myself.

Making this a place of refuge until the Shoutbox is back up and running.

Talking about taking shit off your chest and substances don't threaten me with a good time. Fucking Badger Force sniffed this one out =)

HEY YOU!

I watched your video. Why are you not as fat in the real world as you claim in your posts? I was shocked - SHOCKED I tell you!

I look like a bowling ball perched on two toothpicks for legs.. Living in these mountains makes that an adventure. Going downhill is really, REALLY, not a problem, but coming back uphill, not so much.

No, I mean a BOWLING BALL. I'm scrawny as a fence rail, but got this watermelon sized gut between head and feet. I blame the beer, but don't care enough to stop drinking it...

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[BIAD]

Just turn on the charm and appear helpless - he'll cave, melt, and then foot the bill. Works every time. take That from a man.
We're vulnerable like that. Women want to be WANTED, but men need to be NEEDED. It's our weakness.

I'm all for free speech and all that, but don't give away our secrets!!