Shoutbox Wannabe.

[Freija]

Feel free to whine and complain, that is what this is here for until we get our shoutbox back

Okay, thanks I will!

When my daughter, who is 48, gets back from her 3 week Norwegian cruise with her other parent and both their spouses, I'm going to have a chat with her about how it made me feel when she didn't tell me she was going. Maybe she was hoping I wouldn't find out but when you're used to seeing her online in Steam everyday playing games, her absence had me worried as she'd recently had surgery on her foot and she wasn't replying to my texts so I texted said other parent trying to find out if they knew anything only to find out they were all in Norway together.

I'm not sure jealousy is the right word but I'm feeling something?  Maybe it's just the realization that in the last 12-15 years or so, I'm not the favorite any more but I should be happy about this, not slightly irked by it. For most of her life, daughter never got along well with her biological mother who wasn't very maternal and their relationship was never great but both of them have worked on improving that which I think is wonderful for both of them but it still feels like I'm being sidelined or relegated to second class status so they can mend fences or whatever? It is possible that my daughter is aware of how I might feel about this and why she didn't tell me but I'll have to wait until she gets back to find out.

I know I'm just being a little selfish, immature and dealing with my own ego and being a couple weeks late on taking my hormone injection hasn't helped emotionally and my "family", as it were, is anything but typical but do other parents ever feel this way?

With all that said, I've been grateful for having the opportunity to even raise a child or be a mom at all considering I couldn't have children of my own so I'll probably stuff whatever it is I'm feeling down and let it all slide. I know I'm still loved dearly and that's all that really matters. It isn't a competition.