04-03-2021, 02:58 PM
I don't know why it came into view, but all I can say is that while I was traveling, if I was traveling, it was members that became the one thing grounding me in reality. But which reality? One of my making, or was I now along for the ride, one of others authored by others. If that was the case, then where could I expect to return to? In truth, much seems changed. It's minute nuances all the way to pre revolutionary interactions with people I encounter. And it seems their worlds are plagued with inconsistencies and no small amount of aggression. I feel I'm a stranger in a strange land.
I can not account for these feelings except with a sense of premonition and no small degree of foreboding. Though with little concern. Nothing there to quite get up and act upon, just a mild unease. The chess pieces have moved while I was hampered by illness, or was it a strike against my reality. Molecular conversions, Guinea pig experimentations ? Did I set in motion a substance capable of changing 'My Reality', hence the aberrations in time and of memories/location. The past seems for the most part intact, the present which becomes the past seems somehow awry or slightly amiss. People seem both more affectionate and also in some cases in public settings, more hostile. What have I done to deserve such a reaction? I must of been asleep when they decided to act upon their hostilities. Thank God for the ability to act remotely, Debit, by phone, alone pumping gas, away from interaction necessities like shopping. Some people are dying to have close interactions like we were able only a couple years ago, I , on the other hand am only at ease in my own separate space. Agoraphobic? Not at all..! Just very particular of my surroundings and who I invite into them.
Seems you have been on top of this for some time now, while for me it is new and adding meaning to the word Curious.. Are things Ok ? I would instead say 'are things doable?' Well yea but..... and there is the divergence, the 'but' it is not the same as before, that I can attest to..! Me ? or the whole world ? Hindsight... well it's too late for that. Trust in the government? Absolutely an Emphatic and non-hyperbolic HELL NO. In No circumstances has that ever been or will it be sound advice..
Have I taken the sign of the Beast and been abandoned by My God in return ?
I can not account for these feelings except with a sense of premonition and no small degree of foreboding. Though with little concern. Nothing there to quite get up and act upon, just a mild unease. The chess pieces have moved while I was hampered by illness, or was it a strike against my reality. Molecular conversions, Guinea pig experimentations ? Did I set in motion a substance capable of changing 'My Reality', hence the aberrations in time and of memories/location. The past seems for the most part intact, the present which becomes the past seems somehow awry or slightly amiss. People seem both more affectionate and also in some cases in public settings, more hostile. What have I done to deserve such a reaction? I must of been asleep when they decided to act upon their hostilities. Thank God for the ability to act remotely, Debit, by phone, alone pumping gas, away from interaction necessities like shopping. Some people are dying to have close interactions like we were able only a couple years ago, I , on the other hand am only at ease in my own separate space. Agoraphobic? Not at all..! Just very particular of my surroundings and who I invite into them.
Seems you have been on top of this for some time now, while for me it is new and adding meaning to the word Curious.. Are things Ok ? I would instead say 'are things doable?' Well yea but..... and there is the divergence, the 'but' it is not the same as before, that I can attest to..! Me ? or the whole world ? Hindsight... well it's too late for that. Trust in the government? Absolutely an Emphatic and non-hyperbolic HELL NO. In No circumstances has that ever been or will it be sound advice..
Have I taken the sign of the Beast and been abandoned by My God in return ?