10-27-2022, 03:35 AM
Sorry I haven’t been on here in a few days. Been pretty busy. Ron’s daughter and son in law drove from Kansas to see Ron in the hospital. They had a hellacious drive, wound up taking two days instead of one. They wound up spinning out on the highway as a cold front was following them the whole drive. Then they had to get two new tires on their car. Yesterday they spent several hours with us in the hospital. Ron was so happy to see his daughter, Renae, and there were a lot of happy tears. She held his hand and he was grinning ear to ear, so he knew she was there. He hadn’t seen her in 20+ years.
Then Renae, Nathan and I all went out to dinner and came back for some more time with Ron. It was really awesome, and I was full of joy to see Ron smiling like that. This morning, Renae and Nathan came back to spend a little more time with Ron. Then they headed home. I hope their drive back is better than their drive here. Ron did very well today. He was more alert and did a little more talking. He had been off his bipap and breathing comfortably with oxygen levels above 95% almost four hours when I finally went home for the day after spending almost six hours in the hospital.
I’m tired and plan on sleeping in a little tomorrow. I just need to rest and rejuvenate. Ron improves a little each day. I don’t know what God’s plan is, but I hope Ron recovers.
Oh, I forgot to mention. Monday night when I got home, I had a panic attack and sobbed so hard I thought I was going to throw up. I called the mental health crisis line, 988. They put me through to the veterans crisis line, and I talked almost an hour to a very nice man. I poured my heart out, talked about all the guilt, stress, sorrow and fear I’ve been feeling and the toll it’s taking on my mental health. I’m so glad I called that. I felt better afterwards.
Then Renae, Nathan and I all went out to dinner and came back for some more time with Ron. It was really awesome, and I was full of joy to see Ron smiling like that. This morning, Renae and Nathan came back to spend a little more time with Ron. Then they headed home. I hope their drive back is better than their drive here. Ron did very well today. He was more alert and did a little more talking. He had been off his bipap and breathing comfortably with oxygen levels above 95% almost four hours when I finally went home for the day after spending almost six hours in the hospital.
I’m tired and plan on sleeping in a little tomorrow. I just need to rest and rejuvenate. Ron improves a little each day. I don’t know what God’s plan is, but I hope Ron recovers.
Oh, I forgot to mention. Monday night when I got home, I had a panic attack and sobbed so hard I thought I was going to throw up. I called the mental health crisis line, 988. They put me through to the veterans crisis line, and I talked almost an hour to a very nice man. I poured my heart out, talked about all the guilt, stress, sorrow and fear I’ve been feeling and the toll it’s taking on my mental health. I’m so glad I called that. I felt better afterwards.