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My thanks to everyone who is praying for ChiefD and her husband. That is very beautiful and kind.
I wish i could do the same, and pray with you. But bad things happen when i pray, every single time. And i hope this will end happily and well, so, no prayers from here.
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When I got to the hospital today, a Nurse Practitioner from Hospice came in to talk to me. She gently told me what’s going on with Ron. He’s been fighting so hard, but in reality his heart is failing and weakening. There is nothing that they can do for him cardiac wise. Any tries to make anything better would kill him. The type of heart attack he had on October 22 did too much damage. Everything is holding for now, but this is not sustainable. Ron and I have talked many times, long before he was in a nursing home. He told me he doesn’t want machines keeping him alive.
The cardiac drip, bipap, and feeding tube are the only things keeping him alive. I don’t want to prolong Ron’s suffering. I asked the NP if she would talk to Ron. I wanted to make sure he’s okay with this. He was very alert when she walked in. I think in his own way, he knew who she was. She gently told him everything she had told me. I know he understood, because he nodded his head. She asked him if he was okay with it, and he very visibly nodded. I think he’d been fighting for me, was worried about me.
She told him that I didn’t want him to suffer anymore and that it was okay for him to let go. I was in a different area when she talked to him, because I was just trying to breathe and not puke or pass out. She came back to me, and we talked some more. She was really nice, and the things she told me reassured me in a way. Tomorrow he will be in the acute hospice unit of the hospital. Tomorrow afternoon, they will be removing the bipap, feeding tube, and cardiac drip. They are already starting him on some meds that will relax him tonight.
Once they remove the things, he’ll have more meds, mainly morphine, lorezepam, and something else. This will keep him calm so he isn’t gasping for air. He will also be receiving oxygen. He will be comfortable, and I’ll say my final goodbyes. This is the best thing for Ron. I don’t want him struggling and suffering anymore. I will be okay. Well, I’ll be a mess, but I know this is the right thing. He will be in Heaven by tomorrow afternoon, and will be at peace. I’ve notified family. I’m just going to try and get some rest tonight.
Death is a part of life. Ron touched so many people’s lives, and did so much good in his life. I will do my best to live my life with a sense of purpose, and always honor his memory. The funeral arrangements are ready to go. As soon as I have the information, I’ll let everyone know when the funeral is. He will be cremated and receive full military honors. His ashes will be buried at the Veteran’s Cemetary in King.
Please keep us all in your prayers. I don’t know how I’ll live without Ron. But I know he would want me to go on living my life and not go to pieces. I’m devastated and heartbroken. Thank you all for the prayers.
It’s Monday night here, October 31. Tomorrow is when I say my final goodbyes. It will be November 1. I just didn’t want him to die on Halloween.
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(10-31-2022, 11:32 PM)ChiefD Wrote: When I got to the hospital today, a Nurse Practitioner from Hospice came in to talk to me. She gently told me what’s going on with Ron. He’s been fighting so hard, but in reality his heart is failing and weakening. There is nothing that they can do for him cardiac wise. Any tries to make anything better would kill him. The type of heart attack he had on October 22 did too much damage. Everything is holding for now, but this is not sustainable. Ron and I have talked many times, long before he was in a nursing home. He told me he doesn’t want machines keeping him alive.
The cardiac drip, bipap, and feeding tube are the only things keeping him alive. I don’t want to prolong Ron’s suffering. I asked the NP if she would talk to Ron. I wanted to make sure he’s okay with this. He was very alert when she walked in. I think in his own way, he knew who she was. She gently told him everything she had told me. I know he understood, because he nodded his head. She asked him if he was okay with it, and he very visibly nodded. I think he’d been fighting for me, was worried about me.
She told him that I didn’t want him to suffer anymore and that it was okay for him to let go. I was in a different area when she talked to him, because I was just trying to breathe and not puke or pass out. She came back to me, and we talked some more. She was really nice, and the things she told me reassured me in a way. Tomorrow he will be in the acute hospice unit of the hospital. Tomorrow afternoon, they will be removing the bipap, feeding tube, and cardiac drip. They are already starting him on some meds that will relax him tonight.
Once they remove the things, he’ll have more meds, mainly morphine, lorezepam, and something else. This will keep him calm so he isn’t gasping for air. He will also be receiving oxygen. He will be comfortable, and I’ll say my final goodbyes. This is the best thing for Ron. I don’t want him struggling and suffering anymore. I will be okay. Well, I’ll be a mess, but I know this is the right thing. He will be in Heaven by tomorrow afternoon, and will be at peace. I’ve notified family. I’m just going to try and get some rest tonight.
Death is a part of life. Ron touched so many people’s lives, and did so much good in his life. I will do my best to live my life with a sense of purpose, and always honor his memory. The funeral arrangements are ready to go. As soon as I have the information, I’ll let everyone know when the funeral is. He will be cremated and receive full military honors. His ashes will be buried at the Veteran’s Cemetary in King.
Please keep us all in your prayers. I don’t know how I’ll live without Ron. But I know he would want me to go on living my life and not go to pieces. I’m devastated and heartbroken. Thank you all for the prayers.
It’s Monday night here, October 31. Tomorrow is when I say my final goodbyes. It will be November 1. I just didn’t want him to die on Halloween.
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