Rogue-Nation Family

[Wallfire]

In the small dark hours when you wake, and the full enormity of what you have carried and what you still have to carry weights heavy on your chest. Then a tear slowly runs down your face to the pillow, for you know these are the moments you must carry alone.

[Schmoe1]

Hi everyone,

I'm finally back. I'm so sorry I've been gone such a lengthy period of time. I've read every post on this thread, and I'm sobbing. Good crying though. I had no idea I was missed. Your posts are all so loving and touching. 

It's been a rough few months. I just couldn't bear to come on here in my depressed state. It really sucks to have a loved one in a nursing home during this pandemic. @"senona" I read all your posts and cried my eyes out. I also sent you a PM. What you're going through is much worse than what I'm going through. I can't even imagine. Know you're in my prayers and I'm thinking of you. 

The nursing home my husband is at is now allowing compassionate care visits. They knew how upset both I and my husband were with not being able to see each other, and how it was negatively affecting us. So now I get to see him once a week for an hour. I have to sit six feet from him, and I cannot hug and kiss him. But being the little rebel I am, I close the door, and I hug and kiss him. I really don't give a shit what anyone thinks. I've been married to him for 28 years, and pandemic or no, I'll be damned if I'm gonna let something like that stop me from giving my husband affection. 

Before the compassionate care visits, it was all over the board. I'd think I had a visit, and they'd call me a few minutes before and pull the rug out from under me. That really sucked, and pissed me off. I felt really helpless. So the compassionate care visits are better than nothing. Then the nursing home said because of the seemingly perpetual quarantine, he wasn't able to leave the room for weeks at a time, so his being able to walk really went downhill. This upset the hell out of me and I threw a huge fit. They got physical therapy in there to get him walking again. 

I'll fight for everything for him. I'm his only advocate and I will be there come hell and high water. 

I also worried that my liberal politics may offend some on here. But I think we're all adults here. We may vehemently disagree on politics and that, but like @"guohua" says, we are all a family. I love you all like family, and appreciate the love, support and prayers.

Glad to see you back, and also glad to hear you're at least able to visit your husband. 

Don't worry about the politics.  Some things are more important.  I think the political debate has become more about trying to find an actually good person to run the country, which nowadays seems just about impossible.

[guohua]

@"ChiefD" 
It is GREAT to have you back with the Family.
I'm Happy to hear you have contact with your Husband.

You're LIBERAL!  


 Liberals are People too,,,, Well some of them   You're Family and  We Love and Miss You