11-02-2022, 02:57 AM
My husband, the love of my life, my guiding light, and my best friend passed away peacefully in his sleep on 11/1/22 at about 2:30 PM Central Daylight Time. It was calm and peaceful. It took a little over two hours, after they disconnected the bipap and feeding tube. There was just a morphine drip. There was a little green button that I had to press every time it lit up. I did this while holding my husband’s hand and talking to him. His breathing gradually became shallower and less. I told him while he didn’t need my permission to go, I was giving him permission to go. I told him not to worry about me and it was okay for him to go. About five minutes later, he took his last breath. It was peaceful.
I know now that he’s in Heaven having a joyful reunion with family members and friends. I’m glad his suffering is done. He’s in a better place. I hope he watches over me. I’m relieved that he’s not suffering anymore, but feel great sorrow that he is gone. I don’t know how I’ll live without him, but I also know he’d want me to go on with my life. I will do just that. I’ll love him forever. I will honor his memory. When it is my time to die, I will be reunited with him. I will live my life with purpose until then.
Please keep me in your prayers. I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring. All I can do is to live my life and honor the memory of my husband.
I know now that he’s in Heaven having a joyful reunion with family members and friends. I’m glad his suffering is done. He’s in a better place. I hope he watches over me. I’m relieved that he’s not suffering anymore, but feel great sorrow that he is gone. I don’t know how I’ll live without him, but I also know he’d want me to go on with my life. I will do just that. I’ll love him forever. I will honor his memory. When it is my time to die, I will be reunited with him. I will live my life with purpose until then.
Please keep me in your prayers. I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring. All I can do is to live my life and honor the memory of my husband.