Legion of the Dead

[Michigan Swamp Buck]

I began to think about the world as if I was dead

I'm all about it if you drink the Kool aide first

I drank the kool aid and already died

hitch a ride on an alien comet

a close brush with death

Being around death changes you, whether it was something you had happen to you, or you're putting other people's light out. Sometimes ... just watching is enough.

The worst outcome of death is being totally blacked-out. Work on it, MSB. You're lucky you have that chance now.

Thanks, one of the ideas I had after awhile was that if I didn't die, then there must be some reason I lived. Could be luck, could be I can take a good beating and keep going, or maybe I have some purpose outside of myself, one I may never realize before I actually snuff it.

I have had a big effect on many people though my life, some people's lives even took off in a direction because of my influence. The music scene was a big part of that back then. Of course my influence wasn't always a good one I must admit.

It's just I've become detached from myself, with no real passion for anything now, no lust for life (to quote Iggy Pop). It is hard to motivate when emotions are so subdued and there seems to be no meaning or purpose. I just come to conclude that if God has a purpose for my life, there is no need to worry about that and just try to be as kind and understanding with others as possible. My death will have it's affects on those who have come to know and depend on me, so I go on living for them.