The year 2020 hit me in the form of a bus this time

[Finspiracy]

I'm sure those two weeks were the hardest.  Now that they're behind you, you should cherry-pick your way through other people's comments above.  I think they really meant the best for you and you should 'hear' what it is they're saying to you.

I cherry-picked them all. Everyone is so supportive... I read through all replies in the morning, and my eyes started to sweat... yeah emotional tears, humbleness and gratitude are the dominating emotions now.

To the ones suggesting cutting back alcohol, well, that can't be done. I have had a 6 months sober period before, and 8 months also. Not a drop of alcohol. I can, with effort, be completely without, or then i drink the oceans dry and fuck up everything. There is no middle ground, there is no moderation. All or nothing.